Its lovely to have a special memorial in the garden.
Yesterday was the first day I actually felt 'happy'. I was laughing and joking with work colleagues and they noticed it. But driving home I started to think about Beau and the grief hit me again but as you say that's to be expected.
I'm struggling a little with the changes in Pene and Thai. Pene now refuses to eat with Thai and has little interest in food even if I feed her in another room. She tends to go on a hunger strike for no apparent reason other than stress. When she had the 'cone' on after surgery a couple of years ago she refused to eat. Last time she went on a hunger strike, after a kidney infection had cleared up, the vet saw her every day for 5 days - scans, x-rays, blood tests. The only thing that got her eating again was tinned tuna smeared on her mouth and lots and lots of patience and attention.
And to complicate things further Thai has little interest in eating without Pene next to him. But his inherent greediness makes him eventually eat his meals over the course of the day thank goodness.
Pene still needs lots of attention, like Miki bless him, and Thai clings to me when he lays down to sleep. It breaks my heart to see them grieving too.
Hugs to you both Joy and Odille x